Psalm 46:10, Be still and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!

Have you ever been on a walk with no headphones? Just you surrounded by nature? I found myself taking a break from listening to an audiobook to just pause. I felt neither happy nor sad. I was actually trying to pin down the oddness of what I was feeling. I am in a stage of life where I I have more questions than answers about the direction of my life. Should I be here? Why am I here in this city? I could leave? But I don’t want to leave. Is that a good thing or bad thing? I feel I long for change because life feels like an endless road of the same. And I pondered what should I do with my time? Should volunteer it? Something I have been wanting to do for a long time. Is that what I want or need? Does that matter?

And as I pondered a phrase came to mind: How do I savor it beautiful and not rush its close. So below, I try to finish that thought with a poem of my thoughts today. It’s not perfect but feels purposeful.

Savor it Beautiful

How do I savor it beautiful,

And not rush it to close

How to explore my road

When often mine feels hard to place

Broken Wide Open

Stretched long before my eyes

Questions linger, asking me why

Many why’s that I don’t know

That I still hold close

Wondering if this life will shift

In my midst

Or am I to shift

This road waiting on me

To bring light to its path

This road has not a mind like mine

So I pause to stop and listen

Silence hugs me

The wind caresses me

Unanswered questions become a friend

I am unsure of the path in front of me

But a better thought comes to mind

Do I know me?

Does the road I am on reflect my belief?

Does it beckon me to take charge ?

To more diligently choose the road ahead

Is the road supposed to be different or am I?

and If I am to be different

Am I patient enough to listen

To wait and not run from the uncomfortable feelings

Of not quite knowing

To lean in unknown

I hear God say to,” Trust me”

I know not what He means

Trust you in this that feels like wandering ?

Is this wander or purpose?

Is there beauty in this?

Am I a wanderer or on a purposeful graze?

Am I at the brink of change

Am I asking questions because I long for more of me?

I do not know the answer

I asked God

Yet I feel Him

Purposefully silent

With a smile upon his face

So I follow in His stride

And this thought comes to mind

Be still and know

Selah

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The phrase in Psalm 46:10, Be still and know in the Hebrew has such deep meaning. They are weighty words worth pondering. You can look them up with the blue letter bible app or online

There is something to be revealed in that rest or let go. Don’t rush this season, there is still something beautiful to savor in it still. So in the silence in the reckless abandon of self, let go and let God reveal himself to you. And maybe you to yourself!